34 weeks! This is insane, you guys. I think I say it every week, but seriously, where has the time gone? At this stage in the game, I’m feeling alllllll the feelings — excitement, nervousness, delight, overwhelm — sometimes all within a few minutes of each other! The emotional roller coaster is real.
My body is feeling stretched further than it felt when I was pregnant with Briar. I wake up at least three times a night to use the bathroom. I don’t go anywhere without the antacids within arm’s reach. I am forever out of breath and am shocked at how tired I feel after performing the simplest of activities. But the strange thing is, I love it. I love being pregnant and I know I’ll miss it as soon as he’s here. But I also know that it will feel amazing to sleep on my stomach and drink wine and wear my wedding ring again. So there you have it. Pregnancy, much like every other facet of motherhood, is a mixed bag of tricks.
I’ve made it almost 35 weeks before I really gave any thought to the birth process, but here I am, feeling a bit nervous about doing it all over again. I can’t decide if the second time around is easier because you know what to expect or if the second time is harder because you know what to expect? I know it’s going to hurt like a mother but I can’t remember exactly what it feels like. It’s all worth it, of course, and clearly I wasn’t scared away after having Briar, but the fear of the unknown has been slowly creeping back into my subconscious. Especially in the middle of the night after getting up to use the bathroom for the umpteenth time. #pregprobs
There are lots of things that need to get done before baby arrives (i.e. packing a hospital bag, reinstalling the infant car seat, washing tiny clothes), but there are also a few fun things that I want to do while I still have the time. Like reread Dad Is Fat. And take lots of naps. And go places by myself. And shower Briar with my undivided attention for a few weeks longer.
I’ve begun daydreaming about all the fun moments to come and that always helps to quell my nerves. I’m excited for the weather to cool down a bit so I can take my two babies on long walks! I’m excited for Halloween and Thanksgiving and Christmas! I’m excited for all the photo ops! Heck, I’m even excited to run errands with them just so I can prove to myself that it can be done! I know it’s going to be a ton of work but I feel up to the challenge.
These next few weeks are going to be crazy!