I found out I was pregnant the day before my birthday. Even though all I really wanted was a couple of margaritas to ring in my 27th year, I got a positive pregnancy test instead.
I was definitely taken aback. How did this happen so fast?? I had always assumed that we would have the luxury of a few months before any babies came onto the scene. WRONG. And here’s the thing: I know I am lucky. Incredibly lucky. I realize that now and I feel so grateful that we didn’t have to play the waiting game that so many people around us play every single month. But in that moment (and the next few weeks that followed), I was in complete and utter denial. No effing way was this happening. We’re too young to have kids! How in the world would we pay for another college education when we hadn’t even paid off our own loans yet? We don’t even own a house! Or a dog! My thoughts were an endless loop of holyshitholyshitholyshit.
But deep down, I secretly knew we would be just fine. Even though we had only been married for thirty seconds, our relationship has been building and strengthening for over nine years. We had had several discussions prior to getting married about wanting to start a family right away and obviously we knew what we were setting ourselves up for. I just had no clue that “right away” would mean “on our honeymoon.”
As for John’s reaction? He was THRILLED. Beyond thrilled, even. He has been excited since day one. And thank goodness for that. He helped to balance out my skepticism and uneasiness about the situation. Whenever I would get bogged down in the logistics of actually caring for a baby, he reminded me of all the fun things to come. Whenever I felt nauseas and wondered why the heck I did this to myself, he would bring me a heating pad and let me have the whole couch to myself. Whenever I snapped at him for no good reason (HORMONES), he took it in stride. The kid’s a saint. Let’s just hope our baby gets his patience and kindness ;)
And for the record, I am ELATED to be having a baby. Beyond elated. It took me a minute, but I came around and I’m not looking back.
P.S. Thank you SO MUCH for all of your well wishes! They mean the world to us! xo