want what you want.

Posted on: Thursday, July 30, 2015

Want What You Want | Ann-Marie Loves

Yesterday I took myself on a solo date to my favorite coffee shop in my favorite city (I’ll give you one guess where that is!), listened to inspiring podcast episodes (this one, this one, and this one), and really allowed myself to dig deep. In doing so, I came to the startling realization that IT IS OKAY to want what we want. In fact, if we don’t acknowledge our deepest desires, how in the world will they ever come true?! When I think back on my life, there have been a few key moments where I am positive that I manifested my dreams. For example!

– After I graduated college at the onset of the recession (when I couldn’t even get a seasonal part-time job at the mall!), I was hell-bent on working in the scrapbooking industry. I had absolutely no idea how it would happen or what I would even do or how I could possibly find work in a Utah-based industry when I was a California resident. But everyday I would go on walks while listening to The Secret on my iPod (2009, y’all) and imagine being paid to play with paper until I could literally feel it in my bones. Fast forward to July 2010 and I was living in Orem, Utah and working as an in-house scrapbooker / product designer at American Crafts.

– I have always dreamed and journaled and talked about living in two of my favorite cities: San Diego and Pasadena. Both of those dreams have come to fruition.

– And finally, at the beginning of my senior year in high school, I kept a post-it note on my shelf (where I would see it as I put on my makeup everyday) with the Christina Aguilera lyric: “day by day, I’m going to get my way.” Within a matter of weeks, I started dating John (now my husband!) and a few months later, I was accepted into my college of choice.

I know this all sounds hokey and woo-woo and quite possibly, huge coincidences, but I truly believe that our thoughts create our reality. I’ve spent way too many days over the past year caught up in a fog of fearfulness and uncertainty. There have been some particularly dark moments where I could barely get out of bed, I was so terrified of what was around the corner. Having a baby┬áin my life has filled my heart with more joy and pride than I could have ever dreamed (seriously, I could burst at any moment), but it has also brought a lot of my inner demons to the surface. I’ve gotten lost in the mindset of “this is not how it’s supposed to be” or “I should be at x-place by now and I’m only at y-place.” While I still have lots of work to do, my focus is much clearer now. I’m finally allowing myself to want what I want and to be completely at peace with those desires, no matter what others may think of them.

 

This our life, you guys! We have to open ourselves up to the possibility that AMAZING THINGS WILL HAPPEN if we work hard and trust that the universe has our back.

Have you ever manifested any of your dreams? I’d love to hear about it!

  • Kim Jackson

    I truly believe as well! for 10 years I envisioned having a house that I could do child care in part & live in the other part, having 2 kitchens, even saved a silverware set & a glasses+pitcher set of our wedding gifts to have as new items when we moved into that home. We now have that home. Now I am envisioning the next stage -which in my mind is me working out of the home in a small Iowa based grocery store selling only Iowa products & us living in the country in a much much smaller home.

  • Marina

    I love how purposeful you’ve been from such a young age. Beyond the knowledge that I wanted to help people, I struggled with figuring out what I wanted to do.

    I’m not sure if I’ve ever manifested my dreams but sitting in meditation these past 6 months since I started has helped me quiet my mind and finally awaken to my purpose. I now believe each of us has a purpose that already exists inside of us if we can just be quiet enough to hear it and then brave enough to give our gift to world.

    Now, with two kids, 7 & 2, I’m applying to UCLA grad school for my MSW and taking entry level classes to become a mindfulness educator in the hopes that I can teach young people this amazing practice to tap into their own power and purpose and recognize their interconnectedness with the world through awareness, mindfulness, and meditation.

    Good luck with your continuing journey and thanks for sharing. I love reading your story!

  • adriana

    Ann Marie, from the bottom of my heart thank you for this so inspiring post, it was just what I needed to read today!

  • Ali Moore

    Lovely post. Thank you for sharing.

  • tiffany han

    Love this! Amen to all of it. We can want exactly what we want and bless the rest who doesn’t get it.

    Well done you. I can’t wait to see what comes next. (And aren’t Alison and Jen amazing?)

  • Laura

    Not really on topic…but what font did you use for the image above? Thanks! ;-)

  • Anne Linn

    Love this and thanks for the reminder. I want to change my job situation to better nurture myself (better use of my skills and passions), and have bigger freedom to serve my babys’ needs (not having to ask for permission to take care of my loved ones). The time is now! xx AL



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