We’re having a…
A BOY! I can’t even believe it.
I was in such shock (and quite frankly, denial) for a solid week after we found out. Even though I had a gut feeling that it would be a boy, the confirmation of that suspicion threw me into an emotional tailspin that nobody saw coming. All I could think was, “What do I with a boy? What if he’s wild and crazy? What if Briar never gets a sister? What if he wants to play baseball? I don’t even like baseball!” Ugh. It was not my finest week, but I don’t regret a minute of it because I knew I had to really feel those difficult, ugly feelings in order to get to where I am now, which can best be summed up in one word: EXCITED.
(Photo shoots involving balloons and wind and toddlers are highly unpredictable!)
Instead of being sad about not raising the all-girl family that I always envisioned, I’m excited to have a mini version of my husband and a playmate for Briar. I’m looking forward to having a special relationship with my son that is different from the one I have with my daughter. I’m inspired to find all the cute boy clothes (they’re so elusive!) and make this little guy a stylish babe! I’m really eager to see what the boy version of Briar looks like…will he have curly hair? Blonde hair? Black hair? Red hair? Blue eyes? Green eyes? Brown eyes? There are so many things to look forward to that I have no choice but to be thrilled that he is joining our family. Plus, we already have his name picked out and I can’t wait to hear Briar say it :)
It’s going to be an adventure!