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pasadena.

Posted on: Monday, January 26, 2015

Moving On | Ann-Marie Loves

A few weeks ago, I posted about my dilemma over staying put in Pasadena or moving closer to family.

Even though we’ve only lived in Pas for a little over a year, I feel like so much of my identity is tied up in being a resident. Not only have I wanted to live here for years, but this is the first place that John and I lived together as a married couple. This is the town in which I was pregnant and had a baby. This is the only home Briar has ever known. Needless to say, the sentimental value of this city had me in a freaking headlock.

But. The thing about Pasadena is that it’s juuuust far enough away from family + friends that I can’t utilize their help with Briar. And man oh man, do I need help. Don’t get me wrong…Briar is an easy baby (relatively speaking). She loves people, she can take formula just as well as breast milk, she’s an excellent traveler, and most importantly, she’s a happy + healthy little girl. But at this stage in the game (oh, hi hospital bills), John and I both need to be working. And that means I need to pass the baby off for awhile each week so I can do my part to contribute.

So, we have moved.

And as sad as I was (am!) about leaving, I’ve already had a taste of what the next few months have in store: me time. I’ve been treating myself to solo coffee dates. I’ve listened to several podcasts back to back without having to stop. I’ve been catching up on work + e-mails. I had my neglected hair trimmed and styled. And best of all, I’ve been able to hear my own thoughts and and get some mental clarity! For the first time since Briar was born, I’ve been able to breathe easier knowing that it’s not all on me to keep things going. And it feels good.

Whenever I feel down about that chapter closing, John reminds me that we can always move back one day. Preferably to a house on El Molino ;)

as of late | january edition.

Posted on: Wednesday, January 7, 2015

As of Late | January Edition | Ann-Marie Loves

Beyond psyched to see my wedding rank number two on this list and my bouquet rank number eleven on this list…! That crazy labor of love has officially paid off :)

Rewarding myself with a well-deserved Blue Moon after purging the fridge of expired food. #worstchoreever

Deciding that the best shoes are the ones I don’t even notice I am wearing all day long. I found these booties at Target (after coming to terms with the fact that my post-pregnancy feet are too wide for Sam Edelman beauties) and they are incredibly comfy. Maybe even comfy enough for a Disneyland trip!

Needing a new haircut, like, yesterday. My hair has gotten super long and I’ve lost a good chunk of it thanks to postpartum hormones (ay papi), so needless to say, Mama needs a new look. Any suggestions?

Mapping out weekend getaways with my little family. San Diego, Portland, Santa Barbara…

Stocking up on adorable plush ornaments from Anthro’s post-holiday sale. I have a feeling that our 2015 Christmas tree won’t have any breakables on it, thanks to a certain future sixteen month old ;)

Looking forward to trying out some new-to-me podcasts as recommended by Clementine Daily.

Thinking that a half birthday party for my soon-to-be six month old (!!!) would be so much fun. Now if I could just figure out how to make one of those colorful layered cakes…

Dreaming (literally) of the day that Briar sleeps through the night. It’s got to be one of these days, right?

Loving Sollybaby’s Instagram feed. Elle’s tips for everyday babywearing are so inspiring, plus, her photos are just gorg.

Marveling at all the beautiful sunsets I’ve seen lately! What is it about winter that makes sundown so dramatic?

Laughing my head off over this Jimmy Fallon / Nicole Kidman interview! O M G.

Realizing that I need to back up all the photos on my phone as I have sadly run out of space. Five months with a 32gb iPhone and a baby and I am MAXED OUT. #dontknowifishouldbeproudorembarassed

Anxiously awaiting the return of Parenthood! I swear, if they kill off Zeek…

Feeling SO PROUD that I got my best friends hooked on the Joy the Baker podcast. I’ve been an avid listener for years and I am so pumped to finally have real life friends to share it with!

Retiring from the rubber stamp game and moving in a new direction. Yep. It’s time. (P.S. if you’ve been eyeing my holiday stamps, you have until Thursday to stock up!)

hello 2015.

Posted on: Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Hello 2015 | Ann-Marie Loves

The more years I see, the more I realize that I can’t put a blanket statement on any particular year. Or anything, really. (Except cookie dough. I am ALWAYS down for cookie dough.) Each year is filled with it’s own share of victories and losses that help to mold you into your future self. But if I’m being honest, 2014 was a DOOZY. It was more powerful and life changing and terrifying than I ever could have predicted. I don’t think I’ve ever been more stressed out in my life. Needless to say, I’m happy to put it in the past (insert peace sign emoji here).

My families rang in the new year in a beautiful home in Cambria overlooking the Pacific Ocean…all while the majority of the group battled various flu symptoms (I’m sure there’s a metaphor in there somewhere). Despite our rocky entrance into 2015, I’m already feeling a sense of lightness and peace for the new year. There are big life changes on the horizon, but my main focus for 2015 is to stop and  savor the little things that make life so wonderful. I spent way too much of last year in a state of panic over the unknown that I often lost sight of all the amazing things that were actually happening. This year, I have grand plans of enjoying craft coffee everyday, taking tons of Zumba classes, finding any and every excuse to meet up with friends, allowing others to help me, taking more photos, sleeping in if it feels good, working on more “just for fun” projects, and getting down on the floor and playing with my baby as often as possible. Ever since Christmas, Briar has been hitting milestones left and right (rolling all over, grabbing at everything, sitting up) and it’s been a huge wakeup call for me to enjoy each and every moment, not just of her life, but of mine as well.

It’s gonna be a good one. I can feel it.

briar at four months.

Posted on: Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Briar at Four Months | Ann-Marie Loves

As it turns out, everything I’ve heard about parenting is true.

It’s messy. It’s blissful. It’s exhausting. It’s rewarding. It’s frustrating. It’s thrilling. It’s overwhelming. It’s love beyond measure.

But mostly, it’s the best thing that ever happened.

Briar at Four Months | Ann-Marie Loves

Briar at four months is officially my favorite version of Briar. She’s blossomed into a tiny human with very distinct opinions about everything.  There’s so much about her that catches John and me by surprise. As two painfully shy kids-turned-sometimes-still-shy adults, we were positive that Briar would be just like us. Ha! Not quite. She’s a social butterfly who will smile and laugh and cuddle with almost everyone. We also assumed that she would be a bit more on the, well, chubby? side of the baby spectrum. Again, not even close. She’s a peanut of a gal, weighing in at just under 13 pounds despite her voracious appetite. And then there’s the debate over who she resembles more. I see so much of John and he sees so much of me. But really, Briar is her own person with her own beautiful look and we could spend all of our days just marveling at her.

Briar at Four Months | Ann-Marie Loves

Briar is in perpetual motion. She’s a rolling, kicking, grabbing, gnawing machine who shows off her insane baby abs of steel in an attempt to sit herself up (seriously, how are babies so strong?!). She loves toys and books and pacifiers (which thankfully, she’s learned how to pop back into her mouth!). She is almost always smiling and babbling and John and I will do just about ANYTHING to get her to let out a belly laugh. Oh, how we live for those belly laughs.

Briar at Four Months | Ann-Marie Loves

Sleep continues to be a tricky subject. This past week, she began taking long mid-afternoon naps, so that’s been HUGE, but getting her to sleep through the night still feels like a distant dream (cheesy pun intended). Even though she fits in her bassinet, it’s becoming clear that she’s ready for her crib. The only problem is, I’m not ready for her to be in her crib. I love having her in our room and pulling her into bed when she wakes up in the middle of the night. But, I guess this is my first of many lessons in relinquishing control and letting Briar lead the way. Sigh.

Briar at Four Months | Ann-Marie Loves

These past four months have been the fastest, craziest, most fulfilling four months of my life. Briar is growing up so quickly, yet each stage is more fun than the last. And if I think four months is fun, I can only imagine how exciting five months and beyond will be!

That Briar. She’s my favorite.

as of late | december edition.

Posted on: Wednesday, December 10, 2014

Ann-Marie Espinoza Photography

Going on Day 9 with a cold that just won’t quit. There’s only so much I can do to keep Briar safe from my germs (read: there’s pretty much nothing I can do), so I’m keeping my fingers crossed that she walks away unscathed!

Hooked on Marry Me. That Casey Wilson can do no wrong in my book.

Loving that Rachel Bilson named her daughter Briar, too! I feel oddly validated, like “See! It is a real name!”

Getting excited about my family’s upcoming trip to Cambria. I can’t wait to roadtrip and drink Scout Coffee and bundle my babe up in cold weather clothes, like this sherpa bear suit…!

Stamping this stamp on everything in sight this month. ‘Tis the season!

Dying over Lay Baby Lay. It is one incredible blog, jam-packed with baby, craft, and home design inspiration. (What blogs are you loving these days?)

Digging the branding + the styling behind this new sling wrap biz. I’m telling you, good design goes a long way.

Trying hard to come up with a holiday wish list but I’m struggling! There are really only three things I want: stylish yet comfy booties, a new fedora, and a craft coffee subscription. (Wait, am I a hipster?)

Thinking back on 2014 and deciding that it was NOT my favorite year. Not by a looooong shot. However! It was the year that my daughter made her debut, so despite the many uphill battles it held, it will forever hold a tiny soft spot in my heart.

Making pumpkin chocolate chip cookies. I’m the only one that likes pumpkin in this house so I get them all to myself. For better or worse ;)

Feeling a little blue + overwhelmed for no particular reason these days, but I’m finding relief in afternoon walks, listening to music at home, and basking in the glow of the Christmas tree every night (bonus points if it’s with a baby in my lap).

Listening to Serial every Thursday. You were right, guys…it is good! (I found this article to be super interesting.)

Thanking the powers that be for inventing baby play mats. I can plop Briar on her mat for a huge chunk of time and not feel guilty because she is moving and grooving and learning and enjoying herself (all while Mama Bear sneaks in some work ;)).

Speaking of baby products, I spent a good chunk of time in the baby food + supplies aisle of Target yesterday. My four month old is now eating real food (well, if that’s what rice cereal is?) and I had to find some colorful spoons to celebrate the occasion.

Dreaming of what I want 2015 to be like and three goals come to mind: build a photography business, partner with an awesome company to design baby / mama products, and try something new with my shop

estate sale tomorrow!

Posted on: Friday, November 21, 2014

Estate Sale This Weekend! | Ann-Marie Loves

My sister-in-law and I are holding an estate sale tomorrow in Ventura County and we will be selling ALL of our good stuff! Like, all of it, you guys. Glassware, linens, wedding decor + supplies (we were married in 2012 + 2013 so it’s all modern!), baby gear, afghans, wall hangings, home decor, women’s clothes + shoes, crafting supplies, and much more! If this sounds good to you, shoot me an e-mail and I’ll send you the address. Have a great weekend!

100 days of briar.

Posted on: Monday, November 17, 2014

100 days of Briar | Ann-Marie Loves

Yesterday marked 100 days of life for my favorite sunshine girl! ONE HUNDRED DAYS. The baby that I thought I’d be pregnant with for-ev-er is already well into her third month of life. Whoa.

100 days of Briar | Ann-Marie Loves

It’s been:

100 days of changing diapers.
100 days of snuggling her close.
100 days of fragmented sleep.
100 days of balancing work and motherhood.
100 days of sharing her with friends, family, and Instagram.
100 days of being a mom.
100 days of seeing John as a dad.
100 days of nursing.
100 days of wiping down spit-up messes.
100 days of keeping a pacifier (or five) on my person at all times.
100 days of admiring her tiny little features and big blue eyes.
100 days of trying to figure out which direction to comb her hair (the jury is still out on that one).
100 days of coming up with new nicknames.
100 days of swooning over her funny little noises.
100 days of doing load after load of baby laundry.
100 days of wanting to give her the best life possible.
100 days of attempting tummy time.
100 days of swaddling Briar into a tight little burrito.
100 days of watching a newborn turn into a smiling, laughing, always-active baby.
100 days of wondering about her future.
100 days of playing dress-up (except for that whole summer situation when all she wore was a diaper).
100 days of sending John hourly updates on Briar’s activities.
100 days of snapping photo after countless photo of my growing baby.
100 days of being a family of three.
100 days of laying in bed at night and going through all the iPhone photos I took that day.
100 days of feeling overwhelmed with an equal mix of worry and elation.

100 days of Briar | Ann-Marie Loves

100 days of life with our Briar Soleil.

28.

Posted on: Friday, November 14, 2014

28 | Ann-Marie Loves

Photo by La Rousse Photo

Twenty-seven was full of surprises, some of which were amazing and some of which were challenging. It was a year of tremendous growth on nearly every level imaginable. But mostly, it was the year of the BABY. Such a beautiful, crazy ride.

Here are my favorite moments from 27:

1. Briar Soleil. She singlehandedly made 27 a year that I will never, ever forget.
2. Celebrating one year of marriage and ten years of togetherness with my wonderful husband.
3. An impromptu trip to San Diego.
4. Meeting my beautiful niece Luna just an hour after she was born.
5. Blogging regularly for the first half of the year. (I’m determined to get back on track!)
6. Taking Briar to Disneyland for the first time.
7. Decorating a nursery.
8. My baby showers.
9. Daily walks around town.
10. Enjoying lattes from Float, Copa Vida, Jones Coffee Roasters, and Abricott, just to name a few. (Have I mentioned that I LOVE Pasadena?)
11. Feeling the baby kick. There’s nothing else quite like it.
12. Writing four different e-courses (Styling | Shooting | Sharing is still my fave!)
13. Contributing to Elise’s fantastic podcast a handful of times.
14. Finding out Briar was a girl…!
15. Weaving!
16. Sharing our big news with our families.
17. Reliving our wedding on Green Wedding Shoes.
18. Dying over Parenthood! How had I never seen this show before?! Also, Veep was pretty killer.
19. Having a whole new reason to thrift.
20. Trading in my VW Bug for a family-friendly Honda.
21. Downing watermelon like there was no tomorrow.
22. Reading Money, A Love Story and Great with Child; two books I know I’ll revisit time and time again.
23. Listening to this tiny voice all day, everyday. Music to my ears.
24. Reading about my blog in a magazine.
25. Designing holiday stamps while listening to Anthro’s holiday playlist in October. It’s never too early!
26. Making a tutu for my little bunny.
27. Watching my #briarsoleil hashtag on Instagram grow and grow!
28. Discovering my favorite role yet: motherhood.

I’m so excited to wake up tomorrow morning as a 28 year old with my daughter and my husband by my side. I have a good feeling about 28…

as of late | november edition.

Posted on: Monday, November 10, 2014

As of Late: November Edition | Ann-Marie Loves

Loving: Jessica Murnane’s One Part podcast! Ah, so good. I’ve been binge-listening all week and can’t wait for the next episode. (P.S. I know everyone and their mother is dying over Serial, but I’m so not a murder mystery-kinda gal. Should I still give it a whirl?)

Marveling: at my tiny little person and her ever-growing repertoire of tricks. This one cracks me up.

Launching: my next great adventure this month! So many feelings about it. Most of which involve excitement. Some of which involve anxiety.

Turning: 28 on Saturday! I asked John if he thought that sounded old (he’s 4 months younger than me ;)) and he said “no, but it does sound like an age where you should have your shit together.” Yeah, so not there…

Laughing: over photos from Briar’s first few weeks of life…she was never wearing any clothes! #summerbabyproblems

Speaking: of birthdays, this hat and this coat are totally on my list. Oh, and maybe this chair. Also, is it weird to want baby clothes for my b-day? Because regardless, I so want these dachshund-print leggings for Briar.

Splurging: on overpriced lattes these days. It’s my one big vice that makes me way too happy, especially since Pasadena is chock-full of awesome coffeehouses.

Craving: this healthy cake that my friend Heather made! It was unbelievably good.

Hoping: for cooler weather. But really, what else is new?

Trying: to get to bed before midnight, like I did in my days of yore. We’ve dropped our morning bottle feeding now that Briar is sleeping longer (7 hours is her record!!). Fingers crossed it will stick!

Wearing: Briar in the Boba Wrap every single day because a.) it’s a guaranteed nap, and b.) it’s the best feeling in the world.

Knitting: baby leg warmers and a baby beanie. Because why the heck not.

Enjoying: the fact that after a long day of relatives loving on my baby, I’m the one that gets to take her home. Gah, I love that girl.

Remembering: how much I love burning candles, especially now that the sun sets so early. This one is a favorite!

Reintroducing: Christmas music back into the fold. I’M SO EXCITED FOR THE HOLIDAYS, I JUST MIGHT EXPLODE.

briar + luna.

Posted on: Tuesday, November 4, 2014

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Luna Dalia (5.5 weeks old) + Briar Soleil (9 weeks old) in their ballerina best.

Briar was expected to arrive in late July and Luna was expected to arrive in late September. But as it worked out, one decided to come early and one decided to come late (guess which one), making these cousins just shy of four weeks apart. It’s been so much fun watching the two babies quickly morph into tiny little humans with distinct personalities and temperaments. We get them together (and take countless photos!) as often as possible and it’s amazing to see how much they change in such a short amount of time. Briar + Luna still have yet to acknowledge each other’s presence, but in due time, I know they will be lifelong partners in crime. Love these two girls oh so much!

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